I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself. I am constantly comparing myself to other people my age. I envy my friends and acquaintances that are in school, have careers, friends they see all the time, married, have kids or just have some kind of average lifestyle for people our age. My life revolves around getting Mom to take me places, getting help with other everyday things, and going to appointments. The only real social interaction I have is at Church and Church functions. I miss school more than you can know. The funny thing is; people who have a life like I mentioned above tend to complain about not ever having a day to just not do anything or go anywhere, as where I complain about the opposite. Why does it seem not many people are ever completely satisfied with themselves or their lives? I guess it’s because we are all human beings and it’s just in our nature to never be fully satisfied. We are all humans who sin and have a hard time appreciating the good things in our lives. I love God with all my heart but sometimes I wonder what exactly it is he wants me to do with my life. What are your opinions on this?
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You know, I used to have a good career as an engineer and was engaged to a wonderful woman who was strong in the lord as I was. Then, I lost my job, screwed up my career, and my fiancee left me and I lost my faith.
ReplyDeleteNow, I am a single man who works outside and lives a simple life. Yeah, if things were different I would have a nice, big house and a family, but I learned in the last 6 years that I would actually hate such a life. Nope, I love being a heathen who digs in the dirt all day!
so I guess that makes you normal because we all seem to have the same thoughts & feelings. I'm a few years ahead of you and I'm trying to figure out what direction to go in my life. I think the main thing I've learned... is that you're always learning and evolving. You don't really reach a point and stop. If you do stop, that means you've stopped living. So it's really a continuum. And... things don't necessarily work on the timeframe that we'd like. Set your intentions and goals... and they will reveal to you. But maybe more slowly than you expect... sometimes at glacier speed so you don't even see it happening... until a while later and you look back and go Oh, I have made some progress. Baby steps. Any step forward is... going forward... no matter how small. (Includes when there are 2 steps back and 1 step forward). There, now you know everything I do and I saved you another 25 years to figure it out : )
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